A Look into the Past

 Feeling a little down and inadequate right now.

I'm worried about all of my kids.

I worry about their education, or lack thereof.

I feel like they are falling behind.  I feel like I should be doing more but I'm not quite sure what.

I worry about their spirituality, or lack thereof.

Am I giving them enough spiritual experiences?

Am I teaching them enough?

The worries can sometimes be so overwhelming.

Nana has congestive heart failure.  This makes me so sad.  I hope that I will be able to see her again in this life.  I love Nana.  I hope to be able to be just like her when I grow up.

In a few weeks we are doing a youth activity that involves us guessing baby pictures.  I searched a scrapbook of mine and found a few pictures.


Look how young Nana looks!  I remember this day!  I think Nana may have made those green dresses, but I'm not certain.  I'm going to ask her.  Nana always has a smile on her face.  She loves people, especially her grandchildren.


This is Grandpa Duncan holding me as a baby.  Nearly 40 years ago!  Grandpa Duncan never ages.



And this is Lizzie-Lou.  My oldest baby who was so bored with me that she rarely smiled as a baby, ha ha.



I watched Lisa's Mom's funeral today via zoom.  I really loved Elaine Jarrett.  She was an incredible example to me in the few years that I have known her, the handful of times that I have actually spent time with her.  She loved people like no one else I have ever known.  She was genuine.  She shared Christ's love.  She saw people the way that the Savior saw them.  She was a breath of fresh air.  I will never forget her and her example.  I hope to be able to emulate her, and, in the process, emulate the Savior.

We got a new President and Vice President of The United States today.   Joe Biden and Kamala Harris.  It was an exciting day!  I feel like our country has been so chaotic these past four years.  So much hate and anger and division.  I am beyond ready for a President whom we can respect and who will fight for unity.  He will be a President for all Americans, not just the one's who voted for him.  And to have witnessed the first female vice president being sworn in to office was amazing.  It was the same feeling when President Barrack Obama was sworn in as the first African American President. Kamala Harris and President Obama may have been the first, but they won't be the last.

I hope that I'm doing all that I can to hear the voice of the Lord in my life.  I hope that I'm being guided.

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