Daily Reflections

 I feel like I have failed in regards to my goal of recording something daily.  I apologize.  However, I'm choosing to write now, which is better than never.  Sometimes I don't write anything because my hormones are crazy and I don't want to pretend that I'm feeling well when I'm not.  I'm sorry.  Life is really SO good and I have no reason to be sad at all.  Satan really gets to me at times.  A lot has happened over the past 11 days...let me see if I can remember. A few weeks before Thanksgiving, my cousin (Tiffany) had a tragedy happen in her little family.  Her 5-month-old baby boy unexpectedly died.  It was heartbreaking to me to think about.  What a sad nightmare for a mother to have to endure.  Tiffany has incredible faith, however, and her testimony remains strong.  I held my children a little closer that week as I thought of Tiffany's tragedy. Tara's family came to visit for a few days!  It was seriously so mu...

 I apologize for not writing very often.  I have just had a few really bad days this week.  Emotionally unstable days where I could barely make myself do the bare minimum.  Updating the blog wasn't number one on my priority list.  I'm feeling much better now, but I just can't properly document the past week.  Sorry! The days where I experience mental health challenges really get to me.  I feel like I'm in a dark place and trapped in my own mind, drowning in negativity, self-doubt, and self-loathing.  It's extremely powerful.  Thankfully, it is not like that every day of my life, as it is with those who suffer from severe depression.  I can't imagine not being able to snap out of it.  My "bad days" correlate very closely to my time of the month.  For about a week out of every month I feel very poorly, emotionally.  It's a hormonal imbalance that I feel is worse than most women.  At least I am unaware of any women who s...

Bryce and Mason have been really into magic lately.  They have been learning different magic tricks on YouTube.  They have a few pretty good tricks up their sleeves!  I took some videos today, but only one picture of Bryce. He's "levitating" a piece of paper in the air.   Today was a great day!  It was Veterans Day so Jon didn't have to work and the kids didn't have to go to school.  It made me so excited for Thanksgiving Break coming up in a little over a week!  I can hardly wait!  And Tara's family will be coming for a few days, which will be so nice.  I miss them so much. I went running this morning.  Only 4 miles...it was freezing!  But it felt so good to get out there and get my legs moving. Jon and I went on a date!  It was so wonderful.  I really love going on dates.  We don't do it nearly as often as we need to.  We went to the 99 Cent Store and then out to eat at Yardhouse. I ordered a BBQ chicken salad ...

 I'm sorry that I haven't been writing every day.  I have been struggling staying in the routine of many things since Jon's parents have been living here.  They have been here for about a month, they will probably be here for another month, I assume.  They have been so helpful and it has been really nice having them here.  I am excited, however, to get back to normal life again. A counselor from AVC emailed me yesterday and got me thinking about nursing school again.  I hope that it works out for me.  It really is something that I want to do.  I might just have to wait for a while until I get started.  But I consider myself a very healthy person and I still feel young...I think I could make it happen, even if I was one of the "older" students.  Who knows.  Maybe I shouldn't put the nursing school dream completely on the shelf...I think that I should keep it within reaching distance. We have been keeping busy doing the same old thing...

I'm sorry for missing some days. I haven't been feeling my best (emotionally) and I was having a difficult time motivating myself to write. I am so tired...In fact, I'm falling asleep as I write this.  I don't know how long I will last. I'll make this short. Tuesday was the Presidential Election.  Today is Friday, and there is still no winner!  Biden is ahead by about 4 million votes, however, so he has basically won.  Although President Trump has not yet conceded the race, nor will he until there is a re-count. I am seriously falling asleep as I write this...I will have to finish tomorrow. Today is Saturday...and there is an official President-Elect!  Joe Biden will be the next president of the United States and Kamala Harris will be the next Vice President, the first women vice president ever elected.  Pretty exciting!  I find it so strange that so many people are so unhappy about this.  Granted, I didn't vote for Trump or Biden (I just couldn't...