Today is Monday, today is Monday...

Oh my goodness...I am so baby hungry today.  I can't get the thought of another baby out of my mind.  I really don't know what's going on.  Jon has said, repeatedly, that we are done...we have to be done...we have to move on.  I don't know why I'm having such a difficult time accepting this.  I would do just about anything to have one more chance to carry a baby inside of my womb.  To have the chance to hold another newborn baby, fresh out of heaven.  There simply isn't anything better in the whole entire world.  My heart, body, and soul is just aching to have one more opportunity.  If Jon had the same desire as I did, we would be pregnant already.  He doesn't have the desire.  I can't make him have the desire.  I prayed this morning, in tears, and told Heavenly Father that I can't do anything to change Jon's mind.  Nothing.  I'm completely helpless.  If Jon is going to have a change of heart and have a desire to have another baby, it has to come from Him.  I can only hope and pray for a miracle to happen.  For Jon to have a spiritual impression strong enough for him to change his mind about bringing another baby into the world.  I hope it happens soon, if it's going to happen.  I'm not getting any younger.  This is all that I can think about.  Even after we fasted and prayed about it in May.  It is still on my mind.  It is still in my heart.  I feel like there is a hole in our family...it can be filled with another precious spirit.  If only Jon can feel the same way as I do.  If only, if only, if only.

The boys dressed in each others pajamas tonight...it was pretty funny.

I can't capture the beauty of the sunset with my cell phone camera.  But it was beautiful tonight.



Caitlyn and William caught a beetle on a twig and enjoyed playing with it.







Lizzie painted this picture...WOW!  I honestly love it.  It is so vivid and beautiful.  She is very talented.


I made french bread for dinner tonight, to go with our salad bar.  We have a tradition now of having salad bar every Monday.  It's a good tradition.


William drew this picture of Zero!  He's also a little budding artist.


I bought this Pokeball costume from my friend.  It's perfect for Mason!



 

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