The Best Weekend Ever!
The weekend is over! I am so sad! It was such a great weekend.
General Conference weekends rank up there as some of the best weekends of my life. Other great weekends include the weekend we got married, and the weekends that I had each of our children. I take General Conference very seriously, ha ha.
I always feel a twinge of sadness as the weekend comes to a close. After spiritually feasting on the word of God and being uplifted for 2 days straight, it's a little difficult getting back to normal life. However, after being uplifted this weekend, I feel as if I am more prepared than ever to face what lies ahead, whatever may come our way.
I am so incredibly blessed. Our family has not suffered at all with the Covid19 Pandemic. Life has gone on, as usual. In fact, it's been better than it was before. I have been able to spend so much time with my children. My love for them has grown. They are so very precious to me. And Jon has been home every single day. There has been very few goodbyes between us over the past 7 months. I think that I will look back on these times with fondness. I will look back on these times and remember that these were the days when Heavenly Father showed me what was most important in life. Yes, I have experienced increased anxiety during these times. Yes, I have had my days where I just wish that life were back to normal. But through it all I have experienced feelings of gratitude and joy.
We are so blessed. I honestly feel a little bad that we have been so blessed. Jon may deserve these blessings, but I don't feel as if I am deserving of them. I don't feel like I do enough in my life to deserve all of the blessings that we receive. I just need to pray to find out what more I need to do.
There were so many wonderful talks in conference. I typed up notes as I listened (it's a good strategy to keep me awake). Overall, I felt peace. I felt like I need to put forth more of an effort to love and see others (including myself) the way that God loves and sees others. I need to extend the same amount of mercy that I hope to be able to receive from Jesus Christ. I need to talk more and bear testimony of Jesus Christ. I need to "Let God Prevail" in my life. I need to be more deliberate in making choices. There is no middle ground. The only way that I can feel peace is to follow "The Prince of Peace". Sometimes we may receive unexpected answers to heartfelt prayers. Suffering and trials and afflictions are the very thing that helps polish, refine us, and helps us become the kinds of people that God needs us to become. With God's help, we can "keep the change...our change". I need to be more diligent with my prayers. I need to pray always in order to resist temptation. I need to pray for everyone...even my enemies. I need to align my will to the will of God's. I need to avoid temptation before those little sins turn into huge transgressions. I need to do more to be an angel on Earth for those within my circle of influence. I need to remember that God giveth not the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. One's life can not be faith-filled and sress-free.
There were so many more lessons that I learned. It was a magnificent conference.
Before the conference began, early in the morning when everyone was sleeping, I wok up and couldn't go back to sleep. As I was reading old conference talks and I was thinking about my plans for nursing school. I think that I will try to get accepted to the LVN program first. It's a one-year program. It isn't as rigorous as far as time that I will need to be away from my children and family. The clinical experiences are only 8 hours at the hospital rather than two 12-hour shifts a week. I think it will be more manageable for now. It will allow me to find a part time job during the day when my kids are at school. And now, with Jon's parents living so close, Sandy will be able to help with the kids. This is my goal, for now...but I wouldn't be surprised if it changes. And that's okay. My ultimate responsibility and goal is to be a good mother for my children. And if that means that I will not be able to pursue any type of work outside of the home, then so be it. My children really are my number 1 priority. Life is short. Our children will grow up and be out of the house before we know it. They are only young once. I want to make sure that I am there for them. However, I also want to work on improving myself as well. I feel like being an LVN will provide me with some skills that I can use to help people. Ultimately, that's what I would like to do. Have a profession where I can help people. I may not even get accepted into the LVN program...I think it's pretty difficult. I think I would like to try though.
Anyway, some General Conference Weekend Pictures!
A great weekend, over.
On to real life tomorrow!
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