I'm Back

 I'm sorry that I have missed a few days.  I am not going to let that stop me from continuing to write each day.  I will continue to try to write each day without getting discouraged when I miss a few days.

I wasn't in a good place for a few days.  I just could not make myself write.  Sometimes I just feel really badly about myself and it takes all of my energy to just make it through the day.  The negative thoughts consume my mind...I didn't feel like making a record of those days, ha ha.

On Friday, Jon and I were able to go out together for the first time in a long time.  We got our Temple Recommends renewed, we went out to eat at a Mexican Restaurant, and we went shopping.  We didn't do much, but it took us nearly 6 hours.  It was really nice to get away together.  We don't do it enough.

My self-esteem is really bad at times.  I wonder if I'd feel better about myself if Jon and I would go out together more often.  I don't know.

On Saturday, Lizzie and I went to help with the Bishop's Storehouse.  I absolutely love volunteering there.  It's the best thing.  I wish that I could do it every single week.

Today, Sunday, we had a sacrament meeting on Zoom and then we had a virtual Young Women Lesson.  It was so nice to have a lesson with the Young Women.  I really miss going to church.  I wonder if life will ever be the same again. I wonder if I'll ever have friends or have the opportunity to make connections at church again.  This Pandemic has been depressing.

I did not take any pictures for 4 days.  I took some today, for the record.  We did not have internet access all day, however, so I wasn't able to do the usual "Sunday Scripts" with the kids.

Well, a few pictures and words are better than no pictures or words at all.











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