A Looooooooong Tuesday

 I don't know what it was about today...but it seemed awfully long.  Due to all of the fires across the state of California, the skies have been ominous.  We haven't seen the blue sky in days.  It is smoggy, dreary, and hot.  I feel so bad for Mother Earth.  So much suffering.  So much damage to the beautiful scenery all around.  Perhaps it was the cloudy doom and gloom mood of the weather that caused me to just feel off today.

Caitlyn got to go to a virtual class today.  She was excited!

I actually have been feeling guilty today.  I think...I know...that I am not doing enough for my kids.  I feel like they are not getting a good education this year and that it's all my fault.  I can't get over this guilt.  The guilt of their education (or lack thereof) and the guilt of Caitlyn's dentist appointment yesterday has really eaten away at me.

Mason took a math test on Acellus (his math program) today and he scored an 85%.  He was upset about it.  I told him that he could retake it.  He just didn't want to put in the work to retake it.  He is so smart but I think he just went too fast on the first test.  The second time around I had to sit next to him and remind him to breath.  He was nearly hyperventilating.  I'm pretty sure that this wouldn't have happened had he been attending school.

I keep thinking that their lack of education this year is my fault...but maybe it isn't.  Covid-19 isn't my fault...right?  But I did choose to keep them home all year long.  Part of me feels like maybe it was the wrong choice.  Why did I even have to make such a choice?  Oh, the guilt of it all.

I finished reading a Goosebumps book to the kids and I started another one.  After dinner (I made beans and rice), the whole family went to Apollo Park.  William ran/rode in the stroller, Caitlyn rode her bike, Lizzie rode her long board, Mason rode a scooter or skateboard, and Bryce rode a scooter.  It was so nice to get out together as a family.  We went out for ice cream afterwards as well.  A perfect evening to a loooooooong day.

Now if I can only stop feeling guilty so that I can get some rest tonight.

Pictures from our Apollo Park outing!











  

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