Day with Cousins

 I felt a little bit better today.  It started out a little rough, but after finally talking to Jon about my feelings (something I am not very good at...I usually just try to ignore my feelings and not talk them out) I feel much better.  We went to the school today to pick up the kids' school supplies.  They each were given a chrome book, which is really awesome.  They also got a bunch of textbooks.  I'm not sure how often they will be using the textbooks, since they will be using a computer program for Math and English...but who knows.  This year will definitely be a learning experience.  An adventure.  I don't know if I'm quite ready for it.  I hope and pray that I can stay sane, keep somewhat of a positive attitude, and not turn into a mean crazy mom.  Heaven help me.

I emailed the nursing school counselor last Friday and I still haven't received a response.  I emailed her after getting home from Utah...no response.  I thought that she would respond to my last email, but no such luck.  A part of me wants to give up on the whole idea of going to nursing school.  But a large part of me really does feel like being a nurse is a calling of mine.  I feel like I would be a really good nurse and that I'm meant to be one.  I truly feel that with perseverance and hard work (and a lot of sacrifice on the part of my family) that this dream will become a reality at some point in time.  I said a prayer after being so sad about not being able to have another baby.  I prayed and told Heavenly Father that I really needed something else to focus on and look forward to or else I knew that I was going to get depressed.  I immediately thought that I should go to nursing school.  I know that Heavenly Father put that thought into my mind.  And honestly, since that that thought was planted in my mind, it has been the only thing that has kept me from not feeling sad about not being able to have any more children.  I can't give up on this.

Tomorrow we are most likely going camping in our trailer and taking our inflatable boat out on a nearby lake.  If that's the case, I won't be updating this tomorrow.  But I will catch up on Saturday.


James and Lydia came over today.  The kids enjoyed playing with each other!  I made homemade pizza for dinner.








Caitlyn and Lizzie performed a little musical for me this morning.  The Princess and the Pop Star.  They are the best sisters.  I am so blessed to have such amazing daughters.






I love it how William runs and finds me every single morning.  He is a fierce cuddler.  Oh how I love him.



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